Contemplating

9.00 am, GRPC PETRONAS KLCC.

I was contemplating few times, wondering whats the thing I want to do, to pursue in my life. Just follow the flow isn't so bad, life is still going to be ups and downs tho. It is just the matter of fulfilling and satisfying the dreams I had before. I don't want to look back and regret for not taking a step forward earlier. I cannot guarantee that I can succeed or happy with my choice, but at least I wont regret of not trying at all.

This morning, I scrolled the myPETRONAS  website (website for employees) and saw Tan Sri Wan Zul (CEO & President of PETRONAS) and then I wanted to know about him, so I googled his profile which then took me to Adelaide University website, fees and scholarship. This thing made me contemplating, again, whether to pursue my studies or not.

During my school days, I was so determined to further my studies overseas, and Adelaide is one of my dream university. Rezeki wasn't on my side (I mean for scholarship and overseas thingy) so yeah here I am.

I still not decide yet on anything. It is just.... a moment of serious thought popped up in my mind.
I hope I can find the path I really want to walk through.
Pray the best for me.

Hopefully you'll find your ultimate goals also :)

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