Expectation

Once, mom scolded me for being helpful and told me to fried the fishes. So that was my first time siang ikan, seasoned them with salt and turmeric before fried them all. I was in standard 5 that time, means 11 years old, being scolded for not knowing how to do all those stuffs.

Mom might be having a pms moment that time which made her did that to me but why am I telling this out of a sudden?

Expectation.

Because I am the first child.

I am a girl.

So that is my intro for this post.

We are living this life with full of expectation. Other’s expectation towards us or our expectation against others. Well, it is actually normal thing to happen in our daily life, but the way we handle the situation will make a difference.

As for me, I’ve a difficulty to live within the expectation.

Why?

Because people around me had a high expectation about me. So I found life is so frustrating. I failed myself too many times. I’m not gonna list down all those disappointing things because lets just move on hahaha.

I thought that my life will not be this difficult. I mean, yeah I graduated with a good result, not the best but I have a nice background, not the prettiest but my face is quite ok, but why am I struggling this much?

I don’t want to answer this.

Yeah, I am in denial.

I don’t think that I can finish this post…….